Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come. John 16:13 KJV https://bible.com/bible/1/jhn.16.13.KJV
God loves you and He wants the best for you. He doesn’t ask or require you to do many works and memorize His Word so you might gain access to Paradise. All that you have to do is respond in faith when you feel Him touch your heart. Believe in Jesus Christ for your salvation and then you will do the things that He did by telling others about your Savior.
Jesus told His disciples to go into the world and tell others about the gospel. The good news is about salvation through belief in Him and what He did for all of us on the cross. The thief believed and was saved. You were made to have a relationship with God and He wants a relationship with you. He isn’t “up there and uncaring”, He has always cared and loved His creation. From the sparrows to the whales to every human being that has ever lived…God has always loved all of Creation! Just like any parent, He wants to be loved too!
When you feel His touch on your heart, don’t turn away from Him. Life is so difficult right now, but God loves you more than you can comprehend and He is as close as your next breath. If you haven’t given your heart to Him all that it takes is for you to ask Him into your life and your heart. Turn away from your sinful life and live your life from this point on in His love. Remember John 3:16-17: 16 For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that everyone who believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.
God LOVES you!